New gadgets for me

Hey this is all a bit new updating from my shiney new iPhone I love it!
Today has been great. Went to work and had a really productive day. Went on a date with
my awesome hubby, drinks, a movie, dinner and then just got home now. Just waiting for him
to come to bed... But you probably didn't need to know that!
Had a bit of a time of it lately. Struggling to reconcile Granddad dying and things...
One great thing that has come out of this is that Matt and I finally sat down and wrote out our goals for this year, and next year, and even beyond.
I have been kinda struggling with work of late, feeling powerless and frustrated and sitting and acctually deciding where i want to be in 18 months time was a huge breakthrough. Taking ownership and control of the problem and simply deciding that it is in my power to make things change has somehow helped a lot.

I have my duathlon this weekend. I had thought that with everything that has been happening that it might be too much of an ask, but today decided fuck it, I have done all the hard yards so I am going to bite the bullet and just do it!

Goodbye

Theo Godwin McGregor. 1931-2010

Granddad.

I was there to say goodbye. What an honour and a privelege.

You lived and imparted to me confidence and love, a sense of humour and a different perspective.

I loved how when I was little i got to ride on your shoulders (6'6" is a height to aspire to).

You were always waiting at the school gate for me on Wednesdays at lunch, so me and you could go and hang out, see nana and catch up on the weeks events.

You made the best school lunches, margerine 1 cm thick and choc chips, or sultanas

Marmite is only supposed to be used sparingly, but that never stopped you from slathering it on cm's thick.

I loved sitting on your knee.

And the smell of your sweater, rough on my cheek.

I always got to have a sip of your beer.

I love your laugh, and that grimace you have when you're thinking hard, or when something has gone to shit.

When everyone else was competing for first fiddle, your were a stead second, always there.

You fixed EVERYTHING, alarm clocks, my wristwatch when I forgot to take it off before a swim. I never got upset when something broke, because you were always there to fix it. Or make it better.

Do you remember the waterslide on the lawn, going hell for leather into nana's trees?

I can remember when you took me in your ute at Glenary, and I fell out the door, and then got you in trouble with Mum and Dad, I let the cat out of the bag.

I remember how big you are, how tall and strong. I remember your hands.

Do you remember all those Christmas' treats? I LOVE ICECREAM - you do too!

There was always the possibility of some adventure, of gruff cuddles, and lots of laughs.

I wish you were still here. I miss you. It's just not the same without my Granddad.

But I remember all the cool times and the crazy times, and I know when I have kids, and mum and dad are the Granddys, I will tell them about you too. So you will keep on in my heart and in theirs too.

I love you always Granddad.

Love Nardine.

Sunday Sunday

Stinking hot here today, and I have been BUSY BUSY.

It has been a bit of a crazy week. Had people for dinner 4/5 nights as well as trying to fit the training schedule in and other normal everyday stuff. i have got to the weekend, and am ready to lax back with a beer and enjoy the hot summer sun!

Crazy week, and an up/down week too. My granddad is sick, lung cancer and it's not looking good. Living so far from family is hard when this kind of thing happens. Makes me wish we were close by, able to be there and help.

15 people to feed for dinner tonight. So must away and organise and shit.

N.

I JUST RAN 4KMS. It's a RECORD!

Progress

 Me, January 2010 less 15kgs

Me, and Matt, August 2009

Monday Morning

Wow the weekends always go SO quickly!
Had a great weekend though, swimming and snorkelling at Goat Island. Barbie with friends. Read and finished my book.
Unfortunately though had a bit of a tummy bug last night and feeling rather seedy this morning, so no work for me.
I did jump on the scales this morning though, and have lost another 500 grams. I am happy with that as was a bit of an off week for me, didn't get much exercise done, and didn't make the best food choices.
Went out Friday night with my mate Cate. Was a great night out. Witty conversation, great food, a glass of wine. Friends are surely good for the soul!
Busy week this week. I have my duathlon in like 5 weeks, so it's onto the bike and need to up the running... haven't got there yet - but there is still time.
No witty comments or stories this blog. Feeling a bit shithouse still.

Numbers

At the moment my victories seem to be made of numbers.
500g weightloss for this week
$10 spending money left
Size 18 jeans purchased (!!!!!!!!)
3 kms run
35 min walk

You get the general picture